I wish I may

Like a needle getting stuck on an old record, OCD causes my brain to get stuck on one thought, and drive me insane.

I WISH:

Things weren't so complicated.
I was a lot prettier.
My parents cared more.
I wasn't depressed.
My father wasn't a drug addict.
I was more artistic.
People wouldn't judge so much.
I wasn't the one and only -- Cronin.
I had money.
This world made sense.
My mom and her husband didn't smoke weed.
I had a good job.
People could understand me more.
I had more support.
He didn't walk away.
I had a life.
I lived far away from here.
Life would be simple.
School wasn't so important.
I could sing.
The president could save us all.
There were better options for depression.
.... I have too many wishes.

FML.


Today, I feel useless. Like I should go on a long walk, But I feel too ugly to leave this house. When ever I'm in public I feel like the world is staring at me. Like every person has awful opinions. That's why I think this world is so messed up. SCREWED UP.

That's alright, Everything's alright...

WHAT?

EFFEXOR-

A number of children, teenagers, and young adults (up to 24 years of age) who took antidepressants ('mood elevators') such as venlafaxine during clinical studies became suicidal (thinking about harming or killing oneself or planning or trying to do so). Children, teenagers, and young adults who take antidepressants to treat depression or other mental illnesses may be more likely to become suicidal than children, teenagers, and young adults who do not take antidepressants to treat these conditions. However, experts are not sure about how great this risk is and how much it should be considered in deciding whether a child or teenager should take an antidepressant. Children younger than 18 years of age should not normally take venlafaxine, but in some cases, a doctor may decide that venlafaxine is the best medication to treat a child's condition.

FUCKYOUPSYCHIATRIST.

Venlafaxine may cause side effects. Call your doctor if any of the following symptoms are severe or do not go away:

drowsiness ✓

weakness or tiredness ✓

dizziness ✓

headache ✓

nightmares ✓

nausea ✓

vomiting ✓

dry mouth

change in ability to taste food

loss of appetite ✓

weight loss ✓

uncontrollable shaking of a part of the body

pain, burning, numbness, or tingling in part of the body

muscle tightness

yawning

hot flashes or flushing

sore throat, chills, or other signs of infection

ringing in the ears

changes in sexual desire or ability

enlarged pupils (black circles in the middle of the eyes)


DIZZINESS ✓✓✓✓✓