Sunday, March 28, 2010

O-C-D. What's it mean to me?

Real Definition (wiki) : Obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD) is a mental disorder characterized by intrusive thoughts that produce anxiety, by repetitive behaviors aimed at reducing anxiety, or by combinations of such thoughts (obsessions) and behaviors (compulsions). The symptoms of this anxiety disorder range from repetitive hand-washing and extensive hoarding to preoccupation with sexual, religious, or aggressive impulses. These symptoms can be alienating and time-consuming, and often cause severe emotional and economic loss. The acts of those who have OCD may appear paranoid and come across to others as psychotic. However, except in young children, OCD sufferers generally recognize their thoughts and subsequent actions as irrational, and they may become further distressed by this realization.

My Definition: Hell.

-I have had OCD traits for as long as I can remember. But -- I was professionally diagnosed June 2009. I have "rituals" that I share with very little people. But it's time to get over this, I'm ready to be OCD "free". My "rituals" or things that clear my mind are common in people who are Obsessive Compulsive. I don't know why I do them -- I just do. Hair pulling is my biggest ritual that I need to stop. I always try to put my mind to it, I can't stop. I have to say I do it for a total of 3 hours a day. Locking my door when I sleep is a MUST. Laundry washing, and cleanliness. I used to never be able to take the top paper in a pile -- I've recently over come that. Lights are a giant issue, Either you have one or the other on in one room with two lights. I don't know why, but it bothers me incredibly. Knives are also a big problem to me, I don't trust myself around them. It's not a phobia, it's a trust problem. It's like standing next to a tiger when I'm near a knife. I could go on and on but those are the majors. If you have some of the same, comment!

What are your rituals?

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